This headache is not helping.
And I have few pages to go. And my weekend would end in less than 48 hours.
hewn:
I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them. I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won’t tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn’t change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn’t really change the fact that you have what you have.
- Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
Cannot do any works. Had my coffee late. Extreme headache.
Extreme headache+ rainy days = Sleep in.
"It is a small world. You do not have to live in it particularly long to learn that for yourself. There is a theory that, in the whole world, there are only five hundred real people (the cast, as it were; all the rest of the people in the world, the theory suggests, are extras) and what is more, they all know each other. And it’s true, or true as far as it goes. In reality the world is made of thousands upon thousands of groups of about five hundred people, all of whom will spend their lives bumping into each other, trying to avoid each other, and discovering each other in the same unlikely teashop in Vancouver. There is an unavoidability to the process. It’s not even coincidence. It’s just the way the world works, with no regard for individuals or for propriety."
Neil Gaiman, Anansi Boys (via colporteur)
Perhaps, what I needed the most is my own self-discovery.
Yes, I work with the free newspaper. The nation’s oldest turns out to be the comeback kid. Wait for us to become the leading giant.:)
“I wore high high heels and short short skirts to hide my depression and weakness tried to hide my loneliness by hornyness”
-Daul Kim. RIP.
via seoulbeats.com
Sorry, sorry, sorry
These days, sorry has became nothing but a meaningless phrase for me.
Sorry, i did not notice you.
Sorry, I overslept.
Sorry, i forgot to check your emotions in-check.
Sorry I was insensitive enough.
Yada yada yada.
I wanted to tell the world how pissed I am, but what good should it bring?
People dissapoint, no?
Be it your family, your life partner, your lousy whore, your friends, your co-worker, your newspaper vendor, your doctor, your teacher, lecturers etc etc, they will tend to disappoint.
But I wonder why I still feel hurt even when I have been expecting to get disappointed all along.
Perhaps the corny part of me still wants to believe, that all people mean well, even when they disappoint and sadden you, without having slightest clue how/why.
I wish everyone Happy Eid-ul Adha, I don’t want to talk to anybody for the time being.
I don’t want to open my mouth and be rude and nasty, surely.
You might find this helpful. (I love #2)
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Recognize the jealousy for what it is and accept that it’s there. When you ignore it, you only allow it to grow stronger. Acknowledge the extent of the problem and resolve to work on it. Only then can you combat its effects properly.
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Refrain from tailing your partner, spying on her or otherwise intruding inappropriately. It does nothing positive and often makes things worse. If your partner is being unfaithful, she’ll find ways to get around any surveillance, and if she isn’t, then you’re just driving a wedge between the two of you.
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Think about the things that make you jealous—triggers which set off the feelings in your mind. It may be a specific person, a place or some bit of behavior from your partner. For each trigger, consider what quality you react to, and what kind of need or desire it raises in you.
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Talk to your partner about your feelings. Be gentle, but honest and approach the problem with the intent of finding a mutual solution. Allow your partner to say anything that he has to, and expect the same treatment in return.
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Make a list of all the triggers you can think of for your jealousy, as well as the core need connected to those triggers. Then come up with a gesture or an activity which addresses those core needs—anything from receiving flowers to having your partner do the dishes after dinner. Ask your partner to do the same thing—it helps if you both do this activity together—then exchange lists and talk about the best ways to accommodate your mutual gestures.
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Work on developing a sense of identity separate from your partner. Take a few evenings a month to go out with friends on your own. Sign up for a class, or take up a hobby that you can work on by yourself. Far from weakening the relationship, these activities help strengthen your sense of self, which in turn helps you enjoy your partner’s company without the stain of jealousy.
